June 22, 2010

  • it's a quarter after one...

    ...i'm a little drunk, and i need you now...
    -Lady Antebellum
    ---
    i AM a little drunk, but it's only a quarter after midnight :)

    what the hell... drunk blogging, FTW.

    how did i go from guarded, jaded, stone cold cat to melting kitty?

    what is going on here? i can't understand it, but to be honest, i don't want to...

    big ups to ming for posting that song on gchat...
    p.s. ming, i miss you like a sister :)

    okay, here goes the verbal vomit:

    after the isht i dealt with one full year ago, i honestly thought i'd locked up all my emotions, become a jaded, guarded tigress...
    then one day, i looked into someone's eyes, felt something i hadn't felt in an entire year
    and it stirred something inside
    i couldn't place it, and it unnerved me in the most uncomfortable way possible
    the stone i'd placed over my heart to protect it budged slightly
    and several weeks later, that stone's slowly moving...
    wtf jesus, leave the stone there! :P

    all these feelings that stir up in me when i look into his eyes and listen to his stories,
    they leave me feeling exposed, vulnerable
    i'm scared, confused, yet excited and love the way everything disappears, the world melts away when i spend time with him...

    what the hell is going on? :? :)
    sigh... as uncomfortable as it makes me feel, i've realized i kinda miss this giddy feeling :)

    good night, world.