so i've started a "bucket list" but in reality its a "do before 2011 ends list"

Things to do before 2011 ends

- Learn aerial silks
- Learn tap dancing
- Get into the Master's program at UH
- Attain BCaBA certification
- Take 2 overseas trips
- Watch the sunrise from Haleakala
- Successful gardening
- Do something other than opera vocally
- Record! It's been over a year since I've stepped in a studio...
- Watch (and stay awake the entire time during) a black and white classic film
- Learn enough Italian to understand what I'm singing
- Run a 10K... and hopefully get in shape to run the marathon in 2012!
- Go horse back riding (this is more of an overcoming my horse phobia goal...)
- Feed a penguin
- Finish a crocheting project
- Milk a cow
- Go to the Top of the Rock <-- can't believe I spent all that time around Rockefeller Center and haven't gone up!
- Go on a historical walking tour
- Spend an entire day in silence - no speaking whatsoever
- Pay for someone else's meal while dining out
- Create an elaborate fondant cake
- Lauhala basket picnic

Life Bucket List

- Go rock climbing
- See the Grand Canyon
- Ride in a hot air balloon
- Visit Machu Picchu
- Visit the Maldives
- Take a cruise
- Gondola ride
- Go on a long train ride through states or countries
- Drive on the Autobahn

oy, will finish this later... nature calls

hoooo boy, i've got so much on my mind.
big exam that i'm pretty sure i'm going to fail opened up a new time slot, so i pushed it back a week.
that way my only day off (today) can be spent doing some errands to clear my mind.

as a radical behaviorist, one would think i would be able to solve some Bx problems of my own.
unfortunately that's untrue.
to be fair to myself, i guess surgeons don't perform surgeries on themselves, and hair stylists don't cut their own hair.

i've finally admitted to myself that i have a couple deeply rooted personal issues i need to resolve,
but i have no one to talk to about it.
i lied. there are lots of people out there who will listen,
but i can only think of one person who will listen with an open heart and actually care about what i'm holding onto inside.
the sad part is that its not the person i'm dating.

i guess its not that sad. its probably a good thing.
past relationships in which i've opened up about issues have ended.
this one has been lots of fun and laughs, no real serious things, and its still going.
i think a big part of that is because i've kept all my issues inside.
maybe its not healthy for me to do so, but so far its been healthy for the relationship.

in other news...
i've been fighting off a mild illness that has just taken a turn for the worse.
i woke up this morning to its untamed claws scratching at my raw throat.
emergen-C, wellness formula, and immunity pills... work your magic!
caffeine always helps too.

alright... time to get on with my errands for the day. i wish monday held 48 hours instead of its measly 24.

just wanted to jot some things down before i head to bed...

i still can't believe i'm with such an amazing person.

some things i adore...

random kisses while passing by
always leaving me the last bite even though i'll split it in two for us
he cooks! i'm not the only one in this two person party making eats!
the recent frozen pizzas started as i'm leaving work so that its ready by the time i return home
the rare but cherished times i've been told, "come here" to cuddle
always treating me with little gifts here and there
the wonderful drink/beer concoctions
holding hands
his arm around me in public
texts that tell me he wants to spend time together

silly little things like those keep me smiling