March 12, 2008

  • falling...

    ...into that oh so familiar slump again. this time it feels like i'm sliding down slow enough to stop myself and climb back up, but for some reason i can't find any reason to resist the melancholy.
    yesterday i allowed my muted self to go along with friends to the beach, then shopping, then dinner, then cruising around before i returned home to realize i spent the entire day out with people. it didn't really help me feel any better, but at least i didn't get any worse.
    what's going on? :( i wish i had work today and tomorrow to keep me busy. it's the solo time that gets me thinking and :( .

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    <edit> after a phone convo (gasp, i still talk on the phone?) w/a pal this arvo about how lazy and anti i was being today, i decided to push myself to get out of the house and see a $1 movie. i chose to watch I Am Legend because it was the next one and i'd wanted to see what the movie was all about. uugh, bad choice. i hate movies that make me jump, and I Am Legend did so. it could have been better; i'm glad it was only a dollar. and now i'm home and still feeling :-| . think i'll crawl into bed with a book now and take yet another nap... talk about an early night.
    heeeelp, someone or something, pull me out of this.