February 27, 2009

  • seeking strength

    i'm struggling to keep all this self-induced stress from making me crumble.
    why is it so hard for me to lead a "normal, stress-free" life? do i bring all this on myself, or has all this crap been planned out?
    everyone used to tell me that i'm a strong person, but most of you know how strong i'm not.
    i'm desperately finding "reasons" to live and frantically grabbing onto any excuse to put myself through one more day of this.
    everyday has one, maybe two if i'm lucky, hours i enjoy, but these are not enough to keep me going.
    the entire world could believe in me, but it wouldn't matter since i struggle with believing in myself.
    i'm wearing thin.